daffy & heli

there's some things that's been driving me totally nuts lately. haiyo.

(a) now it seems that taking care of the kittens has been part of my daily house chores of late. taking care of kittens? means i have to clear up their poo in the sand box. and do you know how stinky it is? their poo plus urine smell. omg!! obviously, kittens tend to get more playful and mischevious as they grow. creating mess here and there. in the end, i'll be the one clearing up. can't deny they're damn fucking cute.

(b) there's two people who are seriously driving me insane with their childish attitude. and seriously, i just feel like giving hundreds and thousands of humongous smack at their foreheads. but the thing is, i can't. simply because nampak sah bedek. haha. i can't reveal who but they are part of my life for sure.

i guess i'm slowly taking over mom's role. in other words, lighten her burden. another thing, with the economic crisis that will be recovering in a few years' time, it's really difficult for part-timers to find a suitable job. so i guess i'll just keep on job hunting and try not to be choosy. hah. no choice already mah. school's gonna resume pretty soon. and i hate it. just hate it. not because of school, because of the people i don't even wish to see. anyway, i've got one more year to go, so it isn't really a big deal. haha.

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sometimes, deep down your heart, there's something you'll promise yourself not to do or you won't do. but if the situation doesn't seems to go the way you wanted, you'll just have to force yourself into doing that something because you wanna get over it. it does hurt to the deepest core cos not a single soul knows about it except your heart. you'll just need to get use to it for a long period of time and then slowly you will realise that it isn't such a bad thing after all but still, the scar remains. i won't and don't intend to forget you, friend. :)

helina