daffy & heli

i don't know why but i just think i need to post this. my mood swing really played wild on me this time round. i can't even understand myself too. the mood swing has caused me to create unnecessary,unhappy and strained moods/thoughts that i potray to friends, even my family. sheesh. the tone of my voice, my facial expression when i talk to anyone. then, easily pissed off over solvable matter. it's like suddenly i have this attitude whereby, "if you don't wanna be w me/accompany me, i'm fine w it!". this feeling really sucks, really. i've never been thru this kind of mood swing previously. whatever it is, i wish to be back to my normal self real soon. it's like split personality siolsss. first i'm feeling fine, the next minute, i'm not. it's like what the toot.

speaking of unhappy, it suddenly reminded me of those sharpest most cruelest words that came from father's mouth the other day. those words he said, really brought me down to the deepest core. i really cried out to my heart's content in my room cause i was super duperly angry. and am i still suppose to say that is it just my mood swing that's causing the emotion? frankly, i think it isn't. whatever it is, i'll try my best to prove him wrong.
another thing, when i separate myself from the others, i'm not being arrogant or whatever you think of me. i just wanna improve on myself, my studies especially. that's all. and as for the task given to us. pls drag on no more. i wanna hand in asap. can someone tell me, am i just thinking too much?

imissbelovedwataaasomuch.ineedyoubaby.whereareyou?<3

helina